To my friends:

"I love you, not for what you are, but what I am, when I am with you.
I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but what you are making of me.
I love you for the part of me that you bring out.

I love you for putting your hand into my heaped up heart and passing over all the frivolous and weak things that you cannot help seeing there, and for drawing out into the light all the beautiful and radiant things that no one else has looked quite far enough to find...

I love you because you have done more than any creed could have done to make me good, and more than any fate could have done to make me happy.

You have done it without a touch, without a word, without a sign.
You have done it by being yourself.
Perhaps that is what being a friend means after all."

-On Friendship by Roy Croft

Life is a double edged sword.

Oh my god, this just came in:

Kim Manners passed away!

Being a big fan of Supernatural, I find it quite unbelievable that the man himself has moved on.

Sigh.

And now, Zong is going to sleep.

Chinese New Year came too early this year.
The number of relatives who visited this year dropped drastically, though my mum claims they will visit over the course of the next 13 days.

Oh, how weird is it to receive red packets from your brother!?

Eyes Wide Shut was an eye opening experience.
It's like a sexual club for the old, rich and depressed.

I lost about twenty bucks to Blackjack. Shows how great my gambling luck is.

I'm taking a break from the Chinese New Year festives to inform all budding film lovers the following event:

Oscar Nominations 2009

I'll return in a day's time to tell you my take on it.

The Untouchables was a pretty impressive movie.

I was shown a particular scene from this movie twice before I got around watching it and I got to say, I wasn't a slight bit disappointed (except being distracted from my Dad who kept on calling for me).

Usually, in a movie, I love to explore the plot. How engaging the film is before I go on analyzing the editing, cinematography, etc. I supposed that's why usually I have to watch a movie twice to notice the other stuff.

And usually, as long as the plot is good enough I would watch it again.

Oh, not to mention looking at the actors. I love Kevin Costner here, and young Andy Garcia was...wow. Just wow. I mean compare him to Ocean's Eleven, I nearly didn't recognise the guy!

So enough of my raving, enjoy Chinese New Year everyone!

`privatehaven is taking a break!

In the end, I met up with half of da clique and thier friends to watch Bride Wars.

Oh god, the thinking of Cel and I?

Let's just say we have other thoughts.

Occasionally, you can't help feeling a little disappointed, especially when you had great expectations of something or someone. The feeling is nostalgic that put you in a mood where you wish to lighten up but in truth suffocating. Then you try to think of fond memories instead, and perhaps it is a little improvement from where you were going, but sometimes you must wonder how long is it before you break and stop to reach out.

This morning started out ugly. My fault I admit.
But on a more positive side, I finally got my haircut! Which by the way is totally weird but you'll slowly learn how to appreciate it. But recently I always feel great after a haircut, whether it's ugly or not. Just the lighter feeling off my shoulders when i wash my hair puts this simple burden off my shoulders.

And today I'm going to pour myself on all the films I'm supposed to watch but never got around to it.

It's been a long while since I came back from an outing tired and exhausted from over excess laughter.

On an upscale note, I finally got my wallet! I have to say I think it looked much better than the other one despite me lovin dogs. I have to be more weary and careful from now on. Although let's just say I'm paranoid enough now to check my bag at least once before and after I get off the bus.

Kenneth and Esther thankfully accompanied me, and after buying the wallet we headed down to eat steamboat. There were funny conversations that i will remember because Esther and her quirky thinking is worth remembering.

Thinking of it now still brings me into fits of laughter, despite being brain dead.

Although by the end of the day we were carefully stoned sitting in Macs, I believe we had great fun. Somehow another they managed to alliance and made fun of me. Well, at least I managed to get in a jab or two. *Clears throat*

Either ways, I did want to praise them here but I figured their egos are big enough.

Cheerio!

Somehow another, writing always brings peace into my mind.

I'm not usually a fan of romance films, but Casablanca made me fall in love with it. It is one of those movie I suspect Esther will like and will definitely go 'So sweet!'

For it is.

They have some wonderful quotes too, for example:

Captain Renault: Rick, there are many exit visas sold in this café, but we know that you've never sold one. That is the reason we permit you to remain open.
Rick: Oh? I thought it was because I let you win at roulette.
Captain Renault: That is another reason.

There is something about the male characters in the film, though not dashingly handsome, they do bring out an aura around them that is charismatic and allow people to be drawn in to them. IIsa has the most shiny eyes ever! It appears watery, but you do get memerised by her dole look.

And I enjoy the dry wit from Rick, as well as Captain Renault who surprised me as being one of the characters I didn't like initially but eventually adored.

The twist at the end of it made me laugh and smile. Let's just say it's one of those feel good movies that you should watch whenever you are down.

Aw man, shucks. I think I fell in love with the film. I'm going to watch it again soon.

Today my dear friends, is where I am living in history. The first African American of the United States of America has been inaugurated.

Watching the ceremony, I see the citizens of America crying, touched by The President's confident and charismatic speech. People's face in respect and in awe as they watch their new leader rise and try to make the nation a better place.

Never knew inauguration ceremonies to be so fun.

Aside from that, the week of Smallville and Supernatural is back! So promising what the future beholds for Smallville, and I do hope Lex Luthor will come back somewhere in Season 8.

Brown rice is actually pretty delicious, funny how when you get older you appreciate the healthier things in life.

The great expedition of hunting for railway tracks happened today with good ole' buddies Esther and Kenneth.

All right, it was meant to sound grand but I guess it didn't really work out.

So, to sum it up: Esther wanted to take pictures of railway tracks and Kenneth and I followed her. It was a rather hot day despite the colder temperatures the day before and I had sunburn. I didn't believe it until my mum said "next time remember to put sun-block or your skin will be wrinkled up."

Right.

I'm trying not to boost their egos, but as usual hanging out with both of them is fun. Kenneth and I tried to hide behind the bushes in order to scare Esther, but it was a complete and utter failure.

Oh and we saw monkeys, thank god they weren't doing embarrassing things which I had the chance to experience the last time.

I think I got to widen my vocabulary. I hate saying things like 'awesome' all the time. It's annoying.

It's fun to laugh at your cousin's expose. Especially if they're not embarrassed about it.

It was a radically awesome day. It was after all fun with Kenneth and Esther day! We totally rocked at Cafe Cartel sitting there for 5 hours straight. Thank goodness the place was mostly empty where we could laugh our asses off without anyone complaining.

After sitting around and chatting, we went down to town to look for clothes and shoes. Not to mention pairing each other up with various mannequins and hot men and women. Though they denied themselves. Oh wells.

Hanging out with them always bring me stomach muscles. We always laugh to the point where we don't know what we're laughing about. Humorous as they are, they brought joy to my otherwise mundane day and lifted my spirits up. They are always a fun pair to be with, basically cause they drive me crazy with their laughter and jokes.

I actually started doing a meme. Until I got too tired.

Sorry Jin!

Milk.

It's one of those things that surprisingly sooth your soul. A comfort drink that reminds me of my childhood and home. It can be taken warm or cold and goes extremely well with cookies/biscuits. Especially the white chocolate macadamia kind.

It's especially best taken fresh.

Memoirs of Milk.

This post is going to be about Domineering and Submissive characters in the un-kinky sense.

Some people are overwhelmingly domineering in nature that's it's hard for them to stay passive. Whereas I met some who are submissive to the point that they can't stand up for themselves and often need others to control them.

Well, I'm a little bit of both. I supposed it's who I am with. There are few people out there whom I know I can be equal to and the likely candidate as of now is Cel, and probably most of the other clique whom I don't feel pressured to act as either.

It's tiring sometimes, being either dominant or submissive because I guess I'm not made for either.

ZongL's a _____ idiot who's gonna be a ______ idiot all her life.

Oh. my. god. Ever felt some point in your life where everyone on just get on your nerves?

Here it is everybody, the very promised post.

So aside from wasting time going to school today (where we "hi!" everybody who came for open house), Esther, Kenneth and I went for Aston which is much better than taking it home to eat (which was probably the only reason why I went to school in the first place). Basically we laughed our hearts out teasing one another and watching Kenneth suffer with his horrible sickness.
Followed by the very full lunch, Esther said something like "I feel like eating Island Creamery" and before long I find myself sitting on the bus heading to the lovely ice cream place and getting ourselves stuffed.

Note to self: Milo and Pineapple tart ice cream goes very well together, especially with the biscuits inside.

We spent a surprisingly three hours there and by the time we finally left, everybody whom I saw came the same time as us or even after us disappeared.

And just in case they want to know, I'm reading their stories for storytelling.

*evil laughs*

I promise myself today that I'm gonna start taking my assignments more seriously. I realised I've been in la la land without thinking much about what I'm doing, always rushing for my assignments at the last minute and basically doing half-hearted work. Not to mention the fact that I barely study for my theory exams.

I've got to talk to people who are not competitive to get ideas, to share our knowledge with each other and to combine them. So many times we are so caught up trying to best each other that we forget two heads are better than one. That no film can be completed without a crew for the best work is with the help of others. An edge of competitiveness is good but don't be selfish I suppose, and learn from others like how you should let others teach you.

And that's why I love my current class.

Other than that, I wish sometimes how I imagine the ideas in my mind can come out on paper nicely, but it never happens and it disappoints me. And I still feel it, the passion burning for making films, I just hope entering film school won't extinguish it before I even start in the working world.

I'm so scared sometimes in my heart that I'm not good enough that I feel like running away.

Thank god I have great friends though, supporting me in whatever crisis I have in so many ways.

Labels: Remember

The panic clock strikes occasionally and it sends you cold sweat, we push things to the last hour and sob inside when everything seems to be going wrong.

Sometimes, I wish I can be confident (even if it is by appearance) in what I do. I depend too much on people's opinion that I know it isn't good for me, but I find consolation whenever I find others my age doing the same. After all, mostly whatever we do isn't it usually to seek people's opinion? Or rather more accurately to seek approval.

I often forget myself that I do the things I do cause I enjoy it.

For goodness sake, Zong blunders whenever she is in foul mood or when she feels uncomfortable and feels herself going berserkly crazy.

2008 has been good to me, but alas we must part.
With many achievements and fond memories it is probably one year that I will always remember.

I'm not one who set new year resolutions, so there wouldn't be any. But I do look forward to 2009 especially since I started it with a bang.

To all my lovely friends whom have bless me with their wisdom:

Happy New Year to you, and allow 2009 to give you it's best.

Cheers!
ZongL